just turned in a month long freelance project! looking forward to having my free time back.

Good. Got my first piercings and started a project to convert a bakfiets to an ebike with a Bafang mid-drive motor.

Pretty meh. But at the same time, decent, but not.

So, on one hand, I got more time to spend time with friend in Hunt Showdown, fun game. On another… I Kinda went down on reading time… I am still averaging over hour per day, buut, it would be nice to read more q.q And I want to read more in Japanese, but some days, its just… struggle train.

I think today was very hot in my town (30° C). Hopefully temperature will be a bit lower by Friday.

Less hot. I had an interview today.

Like someone already said, less hot. Kid is going back to school this week and while I’m not thrilled about having to get up earlier, I’m extra thrilled about being alone on my off days ☺

Mentally, kind of a mess. Preparing for a planned surgery later this month. Struggling with a newer relationship and someone whom seems to regularly be around but rarely be around for me. Getting over strep throat and hating the antibiotic, but sticking to the schedule. In good news, I have a date with a partner I’ve only seen once over the last two months that I’ve been missing and I’m celebrating a 4 yr anniversary with another tomorrow 😄

I took some vacation time. My new longboarding friend seems nice, and my husband doesn’t seem to hate him, so that’s always nice. He even taught me my first trick, and I’m planning to buy another board since all I have are dropthroughs and one mini cruiser.

Got a flat tire on my bicycle, but fortunately I don’t mind fixing things so the only maddening part is waiting for the tubes to be delivered.

It’s been nice enough in the evenings for my dogs to enjoy the outdoors.

A bit stressful, but I can manage it. I manage to get work done and slowly gain my ability to enjoy my hobby and making thing for myself again, which is nice!(For context, I have dysthymia, so I kinda lose my enjoyment in my hobby for a long while now) I’m new at beehaw as well, so hi everyone! I hope thing will get better for everyone here and have a good day. 😊

Thursday on I’ll be living in my office without a clear future. As soon as I realized that I was really a woman I knew there would be serious sacrifices to be made. When you’re down you get to see what people are really like, the bad and the good. It’s funny how the plant my dad gave me has suddenly died after many years, eventhough I gave it the same care as always. I really loved that plant.

Everything is worse now. Family troubles. Nobody wants to give up their position on anything to meet in the middle. Nobody deserves this. We all deserve better of each other.

This year has been without a doubt one of the most difficult years for me. My relationship is not going great, we may be headed towards a divorce. I’m also no longer talking to my best friend of 18 years. She was someone who had been in my life since I was a kid and I feel so lonely without her.

I’m trying to get my routines in check but just going through the day without having a breakdown seems like a Herculean effort.

I’ve been in a very dark place, mentally. I tried posting about it on a mental health community, and I attracted downvotes and trolls, so not good (some helpful people too, but not worth it imo)

I need to find a therapist, but I haven’t had much luck in the past (had one who went on an unprovoked rant about how there’s a MLK Day but no White People Day, and another who was obsessed with being so vocally anti-cannabis that I felt I couldn’t be honest)

I’m thinking about staying with my parents for a while, but I can’t afford to take time off work to go

I got a kitten. Want to see pictures?

Edit: Here’s us having cuddles on her first day home.

She can be loud.

She’s decided this is her bed. I need to chase her off and get a clean one!

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