• RadioRat (he/they)@beehaw.org
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    4 months ago

    Checked into a partial hospitalization program last week because my social anxiety and agoraphobia got too big to manage alone.

    The past few days have been perhaps the first I’ve felt joy and love in their full forms 😸

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      4 months ago

      I’m so happy and so so proud for you RadioRat!!! I know how difficult it is to take that first step, and I am so happy to read that you’re feeling joy ❤️

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        4 months ago

        It’s just good to know true joy and exist in my body more often. It was really heavy for so long. I made small talk at a lab appointment prior to and at a haircut following group today.

        The hair stylist ended up being a specialist in sensory issues so it was very nice to have that kind of chill, mindful haircut. I nearly fell asleep!

        Oh! And I’m doing all this while dog tired from insomnia but I’m in a pretty good mood and getting more sleep every night 😸

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          That’s amazing! Both of those can be so hard when small talk feels impossible. I have a more mild social anxiety, and sometimes I forget how much one stupid small talk convo can make me feel so happy and positive. Glad you’re doing well ❤️