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Will be better when it’s over. Last week in a job that my days are numbered in, hopefully the next adventure will be more energising.

By the way, when I upgraded from 0.17.4 to 0.18.0, I noticed the UI for blocking instances changed and was missing my list in the admin panel (still visible on the /instances page). I added a blocked instance and it nuked my entire pre-0.18 list. Might have been a freak accident but it might be worth making a copy of Beehaw’s first just in case. Oh and it’s no longer comma-separated, you have to add them one-by-one

I think I might be sick. Felt overly exhausted all weekend and had an impossible time today making my brain work

Having just a teensy bit of a nervous breakdown reevaluating my life choices the night before a job interview.

Gonna try to get to sleep, though.

My week is going well.

I was planning to attend the local pride parade and festival yesterday, but didn’t go due to sheer laziness lol. So I got stoned and watched YouTube with my boyfriend instead.

Speaking of my boyfriend, three of his Horror Bishoujo figurines came in the mail from Japan today (Chucky, Freddy Krueger, and Edward Scissorhands). He’s excited to put them up and I’m happy for him.

Olivia Chow just won the Toronto by-election, so my week is off to a good start :)

Also, Pride was over the weekend, and I got a new bike.

I really was dreading work this week. There are a number of large things that are kind of just getting kicked down the road so it’s hard to truly disconnect on the weekends. I have a good plan and support network but it’s just a long road.

Sometimes in life, we have to just accept being uncomfortable and work through it. I have also found a new power in positive self-talk, combining this with meditation has given me some well needed moments of peace of mind.

Found a new spot with really good empanadas. 14yo son is going for his first job interview tomorrow. Looking to slow down a little this week.

It’s OK, although not very good.

For one, I now suffers from sleep OCD. Every time I put my head into the pillow, I always have the feeling that I slept just slightly out of the middle of the pillow, even though I clearly don’t.

This happens to other things, too. I kept changing the fan, the sleep position, the blanket, over and over again. And I think it’s a main reason why I can’t sleep well in the past couple of days. I have a really good sleep yesterday tho.

I also, temporarily, develop a fear for sleep. I don’t know if this comes from me watching too much creepy TV IDs, or that one thought about a TV sign-off that is straight up horror movie to terrify the children, but whenever I sleep, I feel a sense of danger, like something is gonna come out of nowhere and devour me.

I don’t know what it is. I just know it is something terrifying.

Anyways, in the past week I have been focusing more on my social media presence. I don’t know why but I seem to focus more on how’s my account doing, how’s my art doing, etc.

Life has been slow and lately I’m having a bit of self doubt. But today I get to eat dominos pizza, so… I’m happy in the moment. I dunno why but the pizza is just really good to me rn lol.

Well I was accepted here so that’s great!

Aside from that, work was pretty chill today, I have a lot of training to do for this new product we’re selling, and I’m trying some new recipes!

It is already too much. I am not looking forward to the rest. I am happy alyaza is here to share all the links to keep me from thinking about work too much. Thank you alyaza!

Spent a couple days with my partner which was awesome but I’m coming down with a stomach bug so that’s lame. Just learning Rust in bed.

Trying to find a new place before my lease expires next month. Also trying to find a better job. So altogether, I’m doing.

Doing great! Binged 7 episodes of Lost with my husband today after watching Mike’s Mic’s Appropriately Unhinged Recap of Lost S1. Had to get back to it after taking a break from the intense stories