I would like to add a description (details), but it would be a very long text.
In short: I have depression, multiple chronic illnesses, C-PTSD, ADHD (btw, I could treat it with Adderall/Adderall XL, but there all drugs are banned, even for medical purposes), no money to rent on my own, poor physical and mental health, some basic things I don’t have money for, I don’t have a computer and it seems that my laptop will soon broken…
I can’t go to a psychologist because… the quality of education and medicine in this country is terrible, and it’s dangerous to say “everything” here, my mother recently worked, but now she’s left without work and starts doing some kind of crap, she was the one who brought in the income until this time; she feeds me fast food. In this country everyone doesn’t give a sh*t about each other, I am surrounded by “broken” people, this is a country full of cynics, sociopaths, and narcissists (consider mentally ill… and genetically defective, apparently).
Like this… I am spoiled, my life and my future are spoiled.
…the army of my moronic country has killed thousands of Ukrainian civilians, foreign media have been writing for a whole year that this country wants to start a war with NATO in 2025.
I’m really sorry, I don’t know what to do… I constantly live in stress, anxiety, with a feeling of hopelessness, depression, I’m procrastinate a lot…
Normal people, in principle, do not live in this country, and my mother does not consider me to be a person, as, in principle, most ruSSians (these mad dogs) treat each other.
Sorry to hear.
Getting a valuable skill would probably be the best way to improve your life
Is it possible to learn a skill in 1 year and get a job online?
It really depends on what you’re aiming for and what your situation is. You know that more than anyone.
My best advice is to try and learn something you’re genuinely interested in and something the market wants. Web development for example is usually a safe bet. Try to find communities whether local or online where people share the same goal, and surround yourself with people that can help you if you get stuck or give you good advice.
Ignore your local education if it’s not helping you. There’s all sorts of materials and free courses online for everything. Even if it’s something as simple as cooking, that can be a good goal.
Most importantly, have patience. Learning something new will take time and effort. Finding a job too might take time, but you can do it. Many people have. I’m also in a poor third world country but managed to get a remote job after finishing college.
Enlist in your military and deploy to Ukraine, then while there find and kill your own commander or any high ranking military officer, then surrender to Ukraine (or even better: return back to Russia and become a burden to the state in a prison/psych ward). If you do this, you will have legitimately contributed a net positive to the world. Fuck the Russian military and government, both are a corrupt and unfixable and uncleanable shit stain on what is a beautiful country and culture. Or you can kill yourself in military basic training during the marksmanship class when they issue you your rifle at the shooting range.
I just looked, Russia is in 11th place in terms of the number of suicides (Wikipedia), no?
Your country is known for under reporting to the severity of the suicide crisis your generation is having from your equivalent of your baby-boomers and oligarchs grifting from your countries corrupt social programs. If you need someone to talk to, I have your back though.
Skills are just a development of a thing you practice. Get good at something you have some love for. Things like programming, mathematics, interpretation are very valuable things to be competent with, and can develop into many useful skills. But anything can be useful, if you practice it enough. Some things, usually art-centric skills tend to be a lot more difficult to use to earn money in my experience.
But take this advice from a former slacker: apply yourself to something and you’ll be rewarded.
Unfortunately, I think your best move would be to flee the country by any means necessary. Do you have any relatives or friends who live abroad? Even if you are sleeping on a air mattress on someone’s living room floor, it would be an improvement. I do not think the conditions in your home country will improve anytime soon.
I’ve read the post and guessed the country right. Hello, fellow inmate. Sorry you share this faith.
Coding is a good investment in the future, you can read most sources on it too, so you are set. But that takes a lot of resilence to keep on going. I have many troubles with that, and I’m not well in the head too.
There are many little factories and businesses around that hire with a little to no experience and pay you hard cash. I’d consider that in order to fall from the radar. No medical bonuses but like they are worth it. It would occupy you and bring you a starting budget.
After getting some trust in yourself, you can try asking around other places. Shops are good too and they are constantly hiring. People also work in apps, but I’ve not heard anyone getting it big on them.
Freelance is another way, but you need skills. Writing works for others, doing arts on demand, checking items on e-shops, whatever. These pay peanuts, but generally easy to start if your hands know the tools.
If anything, get some way to distract youself would worth it too. People (the cooler ones), media, charities, hobbies. They are what keeps me going in spite of anxiety.
Also, some psychotherapists seem to work and be open, but you need locals who used them tell which ones since that’s a total hit-and-miss. Investigating VK groups can be a start. Expect it to be a private and paid one though. And more chances in big cities, obviously.
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In your situation I would probably try to learn programming.
- You can start at home, little entry barrier
- resources are found online
- good programmers have huge income potential including internationally
- are and will be in demand for the foreseeable future (with AI on the horizon maybe not as they are used now, but truly savvy people will be needed 100%)
- if you manage to write something useful on your own you can possibly license it out and generate income that way
Missed the part where he doesn’t have a computer?
He has one that might break soon ish, but getting a cheap basic computer together is really somewhat affordable, and I would say the best feasible option for someone in that position:
Physical labor is out of the question, getting employed for something else requires prior qualification that he doesn’t have. The mental health issue will make it additionally difficult to be perceived as reliable.
So the best course of action is to either up his qualifications or go in business for himself, both would be (more) feasible this way.
- learn punctuation.
Sincerely go fuck yourself.
