I have autism and this fact has disturbed me greatly for some time, to the point its led me to some dark paths. I just want to know if I can actually live a normal life with it or am I doomed to be a weirdo forever?
I have autism and this fact has disturbed me greatly for some time, to the point its led me to some dark paths. I just want to know if I can actually live a normal life with it or am I doomed to be a weirdo forever?
You absolutely can, especially if you have low support needs.
You’ve said you’re at uni so please reach out to your student services and seek help. Especially as you’ve been saying you feel suicidal. They have safeguarding responsibilities and should help you find professional help and support groups.
A big part of feeling fulfilled in think is owning your weirdnesses. Seek out clubs and societies that relate to your special interests and you’ll likely find people you click with.
Only problem is last time I sought professional help I got stuffed into a psych ward
You might have to game the system a little. Generally, make damn sure they can’t insinuate that you wish for harm to yourself [or others]. Bad behavioral health servicepeople cannot differentiate between mild ideation vs crisis. Fire them if they suck and ask to see someone else until you find the right one. And yes, you can fire them.
Yeah I gotta stop being honest about my ideation…
Try to dial it a hair past “grotesquely miserable”, but not to “diabolically desperate.” Impossible goalposts amirite? Seriously though, hang in there. (I made a joke in the (regular triage) er once and had to leave because the nurse mistook my dark humor for something apparently serious)